Belly Of The Beast
Oct 6, 2022 18:01:23 GMT
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Post by Hw on Oct 6, 2022 18:01:23 GMT
Hello friends! Man has it been active here again. For those feeling trapped, for those wanting to make a difference, and for those still suffering the affects of this denomination while inside it, I am trying so hard for you!! I'm going into the belly of the beast, so to speak, and am meeting face to face with a number of current members. I want to hear about their plans. I want to see it laid out and hear what the goal is. I need to read them and know I'm being told the truth. For you, I am setting aside my emotions and strong feelings that naturally come to the surface when I think about now working with actual PRs. You are worth that much to me. The very place that hated and destroyed me is where I'm returning to try to give assistance. Pray for me, please. I need to do this right for you.
Yes, I am guarded. I will have my eyes wide open because too many others before pretended to befriend me also. PR, RP, and even my own family members have been sent to silence me. It feels so different this time though. I have been received with enthusiasm, with love, with so many apologies, with sorrow at the sins in this church. I feel they truly mean well and they want to do good. I will encourage that always. But I also will push and challenge in love if need be.
I put tough questions to them and they didn't hesitate to answer without any push back. They want to talk with me to learn, they said that at least. I told them also that I want to be a resource to be used when there are abused people needing help.
I'm telling you this because I want you to know that I am fighting hard for you! I am going where I swore I would never go back to. Back to that church. Not as a member or for sermons, that will NEVER happen in my lifetime, but as a partner with current members to work towards truly fixing this abuse issue.
It's a mountain i face. i don't think they realize just how big the obstacles are. Maybe they do. Anyways, I will support them until its proven they are not genuine or not willing to do anything that requires using resources outside that church. And I mean reporting, using "the world's" resources, getting the abusers removed (why must the victim get yanked out of their home??), and standing up and speaking out against leadership who refuse to do what God demands. It's going to be the most difficult challenge they have ever faced. I have nothing that church can take from me. The people who reached out to me have everything to lose.
Support those who sincerely want change and are willing to do something. Not everyone is in a place to do the really big things and I am truly heart warmed seeing people at least doing SOMETHING. The church is being brought to its knees and they don't like it. They are coming down harder than ever. I listen to the words off those pulpits from recent sermons and it grieves me to hear the ugliness and the outright lies and heresy. Leadership is NOT receptive to change...I would say then that leadership itself must be changed. Clean house and new people must lead.
Here's a tough question for current members. What does God say you must do? Stay silent? Obey without questioning? Pretend it's not that bad? Make excuses? I know it's hard, but God speaks plainly about those who harm His children. I want Jesus to be alive and thriving and evident in those walls. I want His people there to be bold in Him and speak the Truth. It is OK to ask questions!! It is OK to disagree! It is OK to not accept what you know isn't right!
Thank you all for your endless support. I never would have believed I'd be in this position but here I am. Being David and Dewey Engelsmas cousin makes it just a little bit sweet. That's the human part of me. I have talked with some of the bravest people I've interacted with in a long time. I am so proud of you! You are beautiful in my life and I am thankful for you every single day!
Yes, I am guarded. I will have my eyes wide open because too many others before pretended to befriend me also. PR, RP, and even my own family members have been sent to silence me. It feels so different this time though. I have been received with enthusiasm, with love, with so many apologies, with sorrow at the sins in this church. I feel they truly mean well and they want to do good. I will encourage that always. But I also will push and challenge in love if need be.
I put tough questions to them and they didn't hesitate to answer without any push back. They want to talk with me to learn, they said that at least. I told them also that I want to be a resource to be used when there are abused people needing help.
I'm telling you this because I want you to know that I am fighting hard for you! I am going where I swore I would never go back to. Back to that church. Not as a member or for sermons, that will NEVER happen in my lifetime, but as a partner with current members to work towards truly fixing this abuse issue.
It's a mountain i face. i don't think they realize just how big the obstacles are. Maybe they do. Anyways, I will support them until its proven they are not genuine or not willing to do anything that requires using resources outside that church. And I mean reporting, using "the world's" resources, getting the abusers removed (why must the victim get yanked out of their home??), and standing up and speaking out against leadership who refuse to do what God demands. It's going to be the most difficult challenge they have ever faced. I have nothing that church can take from me. The people who reached out to me have everything to lose.
Support those who sincerely want change and are willing to do something. Not everyone is in a place to do the really big things and I am truly heart warmed seeing people at least doing SOMETHING. The church is being brought to its knees and they don't like it. They are coming down harder than ever. I listen to the words off those pulpits from recent sermons and it grieves me to hear the ugliness and the outright lies and heresy. Leadership is NOT receptive to change...I would say then that leadership itself must be changed. Clean house and new people must lead.
Here's a tough question for current members. What does God say you must do? Stay silent? Obey without questioning? Pretend it's not that bad? Make excuses? I know it's hard, but God speaks plainly about those who harm His children. I want Jesus to be alive and thriving and evident in those walls. I want His people there to be bold in Him and speak the Truth. It is OK to ask questions!! It is OK to disagree! It is OK to not accept what you know isn't right!
Thank you all for your endless support. I never would have believed I'd be in this position but here I am. Being David and Dewey Engelsmas cousin makes it just a little bit sweet. That's the human part of me. I have talked with some of the bravest people I've interacted with in a long time. I am so proud of you! You are beautiful in my life and I am thankful for you every single day!